Arthur Gordon
shares a wonderful, intimate story of his own spiritual renewal in a little
story called “The Turn of the Tide.” It tells of a time in his life when he
began to feel that everything was stale and flat. His enthusiasm waned; his
writing efforts were fruitless. And the situation was growing worse day by day.
Finally, he
determined to get help from a medical doctor. Observing nothing physically
wrong, the doctor asked him if he would be able to follow his instructions for
one day.
When Gordon replied
that he could, the doctor told him to spend the following day in the place
where he was happiest as a child. He could take food, but he was not to talk to
anyone or to read or write or listen to the radio. He then wrote out four
prescriptions and told him to open one at nine, twelve, three, and six o’clock.
“Are you serious?”
Gordon asked him.
“You won’t think
I’m joking when you get my bill!” was the reply.
So the next
morning, Gordon went to the beach. As he opened the first prescription, he read
“Listen carefully.” He thought the doctor was insane. How could he listen for
three hours? But he had agreed to follow the doctor’s orders, so he listened.
He heard the usual
sounds of the sea and the birds. After a while, he could hear the other sounds
that weren’t so apparent at first. As he listened, he began to think of lessons
the sea had taught him as a child—patience, respect, an awareness of the
interdependence of things. He began to listen to the sounds—and the silence—and
to feel a growing peace.
At noon, he opened
the second slip of paper and read “Try reaching back.” “Reaching back to what?”
he wondered. Perhaps to childhood, perhaps to memories of happy times. He
thought about his past, about the many little moments of joy. He tried to
remember them with exactness. And in remembering, he found a growing warmth
inside.
At three o’clock,
he opened the third piece of paper. Until now, the prescriptions had been easy
to take. But this one was different; it said “Examine your motives.”
At first he was
defensive. He thought about what he wanted—success, recognition, security, and
he justified them all. But then the thought occurred to him that those motives
weren’t good enough, and that perhaps therein was the answer to his stagnant
situation.
He considered his
motives deeply. He thought about past happiness. And at last, the answer came
to him.
“In a flash of
certainty,” he wrote, “I saw that if one’s motives are wrong, nothing can be
right. It makes no difference whether you are a mailman, a hairdresser, an
insurance salesman, a housewife—whatever. As long as you feel you are serving
others, you do the job well. When you are concerned only with helping yourself,
you do it less well—a law as inexorable as gravity.”
When six o’clock
came, the final prescription didn’t take long to fill. “Write your worries on
the sand,” it said. He knelt and wrote several words with a piece of broken
shell; then he turned and walked away. He didn’t look back; he knew the tide
would come in.
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